don't be afraid, cause no one ever sings alone

so much to say so little time. i’ll start by telling you a little about myself:

 im a girl.

my favorite musical artists are jack johnson, onerepublic, and coldplay.

i believe in peace.

im a vegetarian.

im right-brained, which means im artistic.

i want to be loved.

my day is a failure if i havent made someone smile.

im addicted to chapstick, i have a tube with me every single day.

i get lonely.

i want a pet so bad.

some days, i cannot find one thing i like about myself.

other days, everything i see is beautiful.

i secretly love photography, but apparently all of my friends “love” it too, so i’ve kept it hidden because i dont want it to look like im following the crowd.

im afraid to be myself.

my biggest fear in life is disappointing other people.

i love to smile.

sometimes my smiles are fake.

i love the smell of bleach.

im a christian, and very dedicated to my church.

jesus christ is my savior.

i love mac & cheese.

i want to change the world.

i dont like to swear.

i’ve been told i give great advice.

im the biggest procrastinator ever.

i love making lists.

my friends are my life.

love makes the world go round.

i want someone i can trust all my secrets with.

ive never been kissed.

i love lillies.

i dream big.

i want something more with my life.

maybe im here because i needed someone to talk to. maybe i was hoping someone, even just one person, would listen. maybe i was looking for a place to be myself withough the fear of laughs or weird looks. dont get me wrong, im not a freak or anything. i just started my freshman year of high school and so far i love it. i have lots of friends, i play field hockey, im in amazing classes. but the simple truth is there is no one on the face of this planet that truly knows me, because im hidden. no one at my school has ever seen the real me. im not trying to sound like the misunderstood teenager, but the life i live has almost nothing to do with the real me. so here i am begging someone- anyone- to just listen.